Today, like every Saturday morning I woke up around 4:30 to get to bible study leader's meeting, but hadn't gotten to sleep until after 1:00. I'm not sure what's been going on with me - a lot on my mind, I suppose.
Leader's meeting was wonderful as usual. Bitter-sweet because this was our last discussion until September. I'm finding that, though I'll miss BSF this summer, I'm in need of a break. It will be nice to have a few months of Saturday mornings to sleep a little longer and Monday evenings with Glen and the kids. I'm praying we are intentional regarding how we spend our new found time this summer. The last thing I want to happen is for the enemy to throw new activities our way! He's made a habit of that already.
When I got home from leader's meeting this morning, Glen wasn't awake yet. He had a late night of studying last night, so I let him sleep. My plan was to accomplish a lot today - but we mostly just spent some time together. I can't complain - it was good. My brother came in town and we met for dinner with Mom. It was nice to relax and laugh with family - not rushing on to other activities. We even went into the mall and wondered around for about an hour when we were done (after much pleading from the kids!).
It's after midnight, the kids are in bed, Glen is still studying and I'm sitting here with hair color on:) As I was thinking back on what a good time we had and how we didn't have to rush, it hit me that Glen is still working! Putting last minute touches on his sermon and looking up Scripture for tomorrow night's service. Why did I not think to hurry home so he could get started earlier? I was just so glad to sit for a while and not have anything robbing family time, I didn't think of what I was robbing Glen of.
He is a bi-vocational pastor, so he spends his days working at a job he enjoys and that supports our family. His evenings are spent with us - having dinner together, bouncing from ball practice to ball game or watching a movie together or playing games. When the kids go to bed at 9 or 10, he heads up to the church for quiet time and in-depth Bible study - his passion. Yes - he begins after the kids are tucked in. Many hours are poured over his Bible, usually depriving him of much needed sleep that we take for granted.
As I've thought about this tonight, I think of what life would be like if he didn't sacrifice so much. We'd make it, by God's grace, but I would probably spend many hours away from the family to make ends meet. Thinking about Mother's Day makes me realize that I am nowhere near the kind of mom I'd hoped to be, but without the sacrifices of my husband, I wouldn't be the mom I am.
Tonight I'm praying for God to show me specific ways I can help Glen this week. Though he will still need to study, my goal is to take care of things that hold up the process. I'm not sure what this will look like. Maybe I can research a few things and have them printed out or I can help him prepare a power point (probably not, he's way better at that than me!). Tonight I started by ironing his shirt for tomorrow morning. As a stay-at-home mom, you would think that would already be done. Not with our crazy schedule!
Feel free to leave suggestions letting me know how you help your husband maximize his time - or how you would if you were me. I'm always open to new ideas - especially those who've walked this path before me.
Thanks Glen for all you do that enables me to "train up" our kids in the way we believe to be right. You're the best and I'm thankful for you!